Michaels Testimony

Matthew 18:12-14 “What do you think? If any man has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go and search for the one that is straying? “If it turns out that he finds it, truly I say to you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine which have not gone astray. “So it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones perish.

Family dysfunction is not un-common and is one of the leading causes of childhood addiction. I am not un-common in that I had a very abusive childhood from as far back as I can remember. I won’t go into great detail but I can tell you that there was a lot of abuses going on. So at the age of ten I started using and abusing drugs. By the time I was 11 years old I was a full blown drug addict.

My father and mother had gotten a divorce when I was eight and I was living with my mother.

I don’t know when my Mother turned her life to the Lord but by the time I was 12 years old she was so concerned about me that she made me start going to Church.

That year, even though I was using drugs heavily I accepted Jesus at an alter call one Sunday morning. I was young and really didn’t know what being a Christian meant and I wasn’t’ whole heatedly committed to it.I continued deeper into my addiction and my downward spiral into Juvenal delinquency. Shortly after turned twelve I moved back up to Alaska with my Father. I was still using drugs and was still very troubled. Complicating my very disturbed nature, my father was very abusive. So I sank even deeper into my addiction.

Because of drugs and a violent falling out between my Father and I. I ran away and ended up in trouble with the law. I was made a ward of the State of Alaska and put into a foster home. The people were Christians and treated me well but in my addiction I didn’t stick around and I ran from them to.

Some how, I ended up back in Portland Oregon where I continued my Drug abuse and addiction. I ended up in trouble with the LAW AGAIN! This time though they didn’t make me a ward of the state but rather they emancipated me as an adult put me on probation and gave me the option to go into the Army or go to jail when I turned 17 years old. Hummmmmmmmmmm? Go to jail or the Army that was a no brainer. I chose the Army.

The Army was a turning point in my faith walk. By the time I was inducted into the army I had stopped using drugs for the most part. I was clean through my basic training all the way through going to Germany for my first duty station. I started attending Church and even reconfirmed my life to Christ. The Lord started a work in me and one day I was setting and praying asking God for help and to change my position in life. God heard me and the very next day I was offered the position of Chaplains Assistant. This was a good thing for a while. I started to learn about God, the Christian faith and other Religions. The Special duty assignment of Chaplains assistant involves setting up the chapel for all the different faiths.

Well the devil was not happy and began to work on me again. Before to long I was falling back into some of my old addictive behavior and eventually I started using drugs again. I can write a book on the events that happened after I started using drugs in the Army again but for time sake ill just say, trouble ensued.

I finished my stint in the Army and returned home. Progressed into my addiction and traveled around. A lot happened during those years and time won’t allow me to go into great detail. Ill just say not much good came of it.

Eventually I ended up in Maine. As addiction goes it always progresses. I was fully under the control of my addiction and was doing anything I needed to do to maintain my habit.

Believe me I am not proud of any of the things I did in my addiction but I think back on them and realize just how corrupted the flesh is.

Understand, the Lord will let you go as far as you need to go to come to the end of your self. So with me he let me go on for a very long time. But one year, three months before Christmas, I was dealing and trafficking in illegal narcotics to make money to live and support my habit. A client and so called friend of mine called me asking if I had any drugs he could buy. I did so I went to his house and we made a deal. Un-known to me he was working as a confidential informant for the DEA and he was wearing a wire and recorded the drug deal.

Three months later, three days before Christmas, I was coming out of the Wal-Mart parking lot after buying Christmas presents for my three sons. Unexpectedly I was pulled over by three DEA agents, two cop cars and a county Sheriff. I was surrounded, I had eight cops, all with their guns drawn, pointed at me yelling at me to get out of the car and get down face first on the ground. I was under arrest.

Remember I was a full blown junkie. I was using heroin for a long time. However, at that time I was trying to come off of it so I had been using Methadone. Because I had been addicted for so long to heroin and had been on such a high dose, I was given an extremely high dose of Methadone. I was on 360 milligrams of Methadone per day. The average dose is 50 to 100 milligrams.

So being arrested three days before Christmas was not a good thing for me because it meant I could not get the methadone I needed to keep me from going into withdrawal. But worse then that, it meant I wasn’t going to be able to go before a Judge until after the Christmas holiday. If you have ever been addicted to narcotics you’ll know this was not a good thing. I was hopeless.

They locked me up in a small 6’ by 6’ isolation cell and for the most part forgot about me. By the next morning panic set in because the withdrawal had started to creep its way in and I knew I was in for the worst ride of my life. By the evening of the second day I was in full blown withdrawal and was in pretty bad shape. The withdrawal got so bad I began to hallucinate. I can remember at one point I though that I had ants crawling over my entire body and I had to rake my fingers across my eyes so I could scrape them off so I could see.

Some time after that, I can’t tell you how long though because I had lost all track of time, space and reality, the 80’s song by Cyndi Lauper “Time after Time” started ringing in my head.

Then a peace came over me. The withdrawal symptoms subsided and faded away and the holy Spirit put this with in my heart. “What do you think? If any man has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go and search for the one that is straying? “If it turns out that he finds it, truly I say to you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine which have not gone astray. “So it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones perish. Matthew 18:12-14.

At that point I was healed… Praise God. My pain and withdrawal was gong and I had a peace in my heart like I had never had. That day was only the beginning though. I knew I had been delivered by God through the power of the Holy Spirit but even then I didn’t know how to truly trust and follow Jesus. It didn’t matter though because on that day in my heart I decided to repent and turn toward Jesus and follow him. I can’t say it’s been an easy journey, it hasn’t. I cant’ say that I haven’t slipped and sinned, I have. But what I can say is that I am sure that beyond anything else that God has me and that if I ever get lost again, Jesus will leave the 99 sheep and come and find me. Hallelujah.

If you are feeling lost, caught up in the bondage of an addiction or some other circumstance in your life that have gotten out of control and you feel that there is no way out. I am here to tell you there is a way out. Turn to Jesus. I know how cliché that sounds but truly Christ Jesus is the answer. I am living proof. God does care for us and only wants to love us. He is not wanting to punish you, damn you or condemn you. He wants you to draw near to him so he can forgive you and give you his grace and love. That is why he sent Jesus His only Son to die on the cross and be punished for mine and your sins. Jesus was punished and dies on the cross so you wouldn’t have to. If you are at an end and you need a change in your life. If you just can’t go on any longer the way things are going. Turn to Jesus and turn away from your addiction (Repent). Ask Jesus to come into you life and ask God to forgive all your sins. Believe in Christ Jesus and you will be saved. If you need Help or want more information on how to be saved and how to accept Jesus into your life please call me at 859-514-0779

Michaels Testimoney

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